hopelessly in love

 I do love Vrutant so much I can't stop thinking about him I can't get him out of my system when he asked for break and space I kept running around him being so clingy I have all the visuals so alive from the day he came to pick me up, sitting besides him in the car staring him, walking with him towards the beach, sitting there with him, looking at the ocean sun and him, talking life out, that simple dinner, the short hike, those stone balancing, him hearing the car sound, me trying to grab an opportunity to hold his hand, talking, leaning, having quick bites in sandwiches It was all magical and I didn't know then that I will fall in love with him. I still don't know I fell in love with him or how he made me feel or gave me everything to be myself that carefree, hopelessly in love, fighting for what matters. Still, I did

he kept coming to me him eating that chia bowl on the sofa, travelling to calafat, holding me around, going to the beach at night, travelling for food, him escaping me when I went on a long walk, dropping me at midnight for my appointment next morning

the long distance, late night calls, him slowly stealing my sleep my peace and taking control over me my thoughts my world it happened so quickly. I didn't even notice

he proposed to me came to my place people quickly started adoring him. we applied for marriage and it was tough ride the time it took o god but it happened eventually we got married maybe not the way I imagined or wanted to while I shed tears he was happy it was maybe fairytale for him and I will find solace down the road that he lived dream of his own and I could help him there. 

He kept working and working but he kept rushing towards me, we missed each other so badly, lived many lives swimming together, snorkeling, hiking, walking him trying to be little baby to eat sweet cheat meal

I am feeling little dicey due to my pain around the body neck and head I don't know what is written for me down the line but if it ends soon I am writing this to remind myself that I fell in love got married to love of my life had good life overall even with pain suffering millions battles I had so many little moments which made this entire show worth watching and my soul will find calm it deserves.


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